I don’t even know where to begin. It’s all attacking me, dear Lord.
Hear me as I pray, O Lord.
Be merciful and answer me!
My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”
And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.” (Psalm 26:7-8, NLT)
So here I am, to talk with you. But first I need to gather my wits and my thoughts. Are you sure you even want me like this? Maybe I should get my life together first and then come find you.
I’m sure you’d like me better if I wasn’t such a dramatic mess at the moment. If my laundry was folded and my career was on track and my kids knew how to write a proper thank you note. Maybe then I’d be more presentable.
But then I read,
Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act. (Psalm 37:7)
And I remember that maybe it’s not about me getting my stuff together first. Maybe it’s about being still.
Maybe it’s about your presence.
Maybe it’s absolutely about waiting patiently for you to act. Not me.
You’ve led your people for thousands of years– through deserts, across the sea, and around the world. Why do I forget and assume you can’t take care of my life?
Be my rock of safety, where I can always hide. (Psalm 71:3)
Search for the Lord and for his strength; continually seek him. Remember the wonders he has performed, his miracles, and the rulings he has given. (Psalm 105:4-5)
I don’t know how to handle the current messes in my life, Lord. Not my parenting, my marriage, my finances, nor my career– nothing is truly under my control.
And that bothers me more than it should.
My lack of control bothers me like a thousand fire ants climbing up my pajamas while I try to sleep.
I love the Lord because he hears my voice and my prayer for mercy.
Because he bends down to listen, I will pray as long as I have breath! (Psalm 116:1-2)
I know I’m a control freak, Father, and I know that causes about 97% of my stress. But please bend down to listen to me anyway.
Help me remember that the stress only lessens when my mind is in the right place. When my attitude is completely focused on trusting you and being thankful for your presence, I can breathe again.
You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you! Trust in the Lord always, for the Lord God is the eternal Rock. (Isaiah 26:3-4)
Remind me of those who have gone before, who accomplished great things because they were focused on one thing–your glory. May you glorify yourself through my life.
Lord, you will grant us peace; all we have accomplished is really from you. (Isaiah 26:12)
May you give me a proper perspective about all this stuff swirling around in my head. None of it is permanent. You are permanent. You are eternal.
And I am forever grateful for you,